2/21

As I was drifting off to sleep I had a talk with God. I told him I was feeling alone and lonely and didn't understand why I was still single. Ive had all these chances to make a relationship and they have all failed. I got my answer in the dream... wow was it amazing!!

I was in an elevator going up, minding my own business. Every man that got on was rude, abusive, mean, pushy or scarey. Finally the elevator stops at the 70th floor and I get off. I look around and am told that I can have my pick of ANY of the homes as long as they are vacant. I spot one with a view off in the distance. It looks pretty, looks like it has a great view but as I get closer I see that the yard is nothing but rocks so I can't plant my garden and the outside of the house is pretty but the inside is burned and in horrible shape. I have a woman with a bunch of kids come up to me and beg me to let her have the house for 7 ounces of banana. I figure sure, I don't want something this ugly anyways. So I walk away with my bananas. I begin to notice that all the homes are occupied, none are really what seems to fit my personality and Im feeling let down and alone. Wanting security. I don't give up home and I keep walking and searching.

I come across a staircase. One going down with homes that are vacant but in even worse shape or a staircase with an arrow leading up. I can't see what is up there and I figure I will just take a quick peak. I head over and notice that it is roped off and I feel deflated but a little voice tells me to step forward. As I do the chain falls down. I look around and no one sees me so I sneak over the chain and I see a beautiful neighborhood. The sun is shinning. The homes are brand new and sparkling. The yards are breath-taking. I hear a voice boom "What are you doing here?" In a meek voice I say well the chain fell down and I just wanted to peak. I have bananas and I really want to find my place and not be alone again. The voice says "Your money is no good here!" I feel very sad but determined and ask "Then how do I buy where I am suppose to be?" He tells me "You already paid for it. You are a good person with a heart of gold and you deserve to be happy".

Then Desi woke me up. I see this as God telling me that the others just were not good enough for me. Sure they looked good on the outside but their insides were not what I needed or wanted and there yard would stunt the growth of any relationship. God has someone set aside just for me and when He says the timing is right he will remove the obstacle and I will see the beauty of the love that is there for me. (I also think the woman who paid me bananas for the burnt house was Aimee, hahaha)