1/25

Guess what?!? The damn Saab is broken AGAIN! Im thinking it is having an affair with Earl, he won't confirm or deny it. Had to power brake it home from Snohomish yesterday. Today I went to Kia and drooled over the Soul. After Earl gets the car running it will be traded in. I can't keep borrowing my moms car or putting more money into a car that obviously isn't that into me lmao.

Friday I get to spend 13 hours in Camo heaven. Wonder if 13 hours is long enough to find enough men to follow me home??? lol

1/23/12

Started my journal for the neurologist. Been having more brain farts lately. Yesterday I was sitting at the computer and realised something smelled really good so I decidecd to see if I could figure out where it was coming from. After walking around I realised it was me and remembered I had put purfume on just 10 minutes prior. It's things like this that are really starting to worry me about the possibilities that the specialist is going to find when she takes a look in my head.


I woke up at 11pm last night in so much pain. My head felt like someone had cut it in half. Thankfully when I woke up in the morning it was almost completly gone. Migraines are becoming more frequent. The 13th can't come fast enough. Yes Im scared what she will find but at the same time I need to get the pain to stop.

1/16

MY CAR IS FIXED!!! Thank you so much Earl! Poor guy as soon as it started I threw myself in his arms, gave him a huge hug and started crying! I have been an emotional basket case lately. If I didn't know that Jesse was neutered I would be concerned! Buty since he is I will chalk all the body weirdness and hormones up to stress. (Hmmm me have stress??? ROFLMAO)

I need to figure out some sort of gift to give Earl for his 2 days of working in the icy snow on my car to get it fixed. I have no idea what to get him. 

They are predicting a huge winter storm in the next few days. Thankfully my work doesn't believe we should risk anything to get to our appointments so if it is bad I will be staying home. (Note to self: get fire wood).

Brenda was such a sweetheart yesterday, her and her hubby went out to breakfast (invited me but I declined) and when she got home she had a fountain drink from 7-11 for me. AWWWWW Thanks Brenda! 

Didn't sleep well last night, kept hearing weird noises outside but there is no evidence of anyone out there. HEY Burgler if your cold there is a tent in my backyard storage (the stakes are on the porch) AND a sleeping bag! Just leave me alone! lol

1/12

Well I've had a very painful week. I had a migraine for 6 days. Ended up going to the Doc on day 5 and they gave me a shot and some heavy duty medication. Still had 1 more full blown day of migraines after that. I am still hurting but not nearly as bad today. I was even able to work! The Doctor referred me to a neurologist. With my migraines becoming worse over the years they want to make sure that there is nothing wrong with my brain. So I have an appointment on Feb 13th and see where I go from there. I have to admit I am scared.

Earl I think is putting the fuel pump in my car this weekend. I have really missed my saab. But he has been a trooper about helping me out. He has even come over and tarped the car since I couldn't seem to keep the tarp on even with bungie cords.

1/9

The part has been ordered for the Saab. It needs a new fuel pump *sigh*. The part should be in this after noon and I think Earl is going to work on the car this weekend. I sure miss my car and am so very thankful for everything he is doing for me. On Saturday we sat down and I poured the whole Jesse situation at his feet and told him I am so f-ed up over it and have so much baggage that I can't move on right now. He was totally understanding. Told me that Jesse is a moron and has no idea what he is missing. That if he was lucky enough to have someone like me he would hold on with dear life and not let me slip away. He has been boosting my ego back up with constant compliments and one liners to make me laugh. I know that if Jesse showed up on my doorstep right now I would still take him back, I know I deserve to be treated better than what he is treating me right now, but I know that once he steps back into himself and believes in himself that he is an amazing man who can do anything he puts his mind to, but Aimee has killed the individuality and manhood out of him.

1/7

Keith is Home!!! Keith was located with his girlfriend Rachelle last night. I bet he is thankful for a nice warm bed to sleep in! I do feel sorry for him since his Mom only seemed to care that he came home in time for HIM to watch the children next week when Jesse returned to work... PATHETIC! Sad to see that it was due to the work of Rachelle's family and NCIS that they were found. If only Keith's family had taken the initiative and put up MISSING fliers this might have been over with last week, but the missing flies "upset Aimee"... The world does revolve around HER you know. grrrrrrrrr, some people! Hope Keith doesn't go thru too much hell now that he is home! Poor kid, way to much stress is placed on the head of the 15 year old.

Off my soap box! Had to run to walmart at 5am cuz my nose ring decided that it was so small it slipped all the way thru my piercing. So now I have a regular stud in there (Thank you Brenda for putting it in!!!) Have my 1st of 3 of my christmas massages this morning. Wooohoooo! After that Earl will be over to play with my car some more (Thank you Earl, your a sweetheart!)

1/5

Keith is still missing, his birthday is only 5 days away. I can't imagine how his parents are handling this. I may not care for Aimee but I wouldn't wish this sort of stress on anyone! I've tried to be as supportive as possible without anyone knowing who I really am, so Jesse won't get in "trouble". I truly believe that helping is the right thing to do. This is not a Jesse and Me thing, this is all about Keith!

Sad to say but Im actually beginning to like the attention I am getting from one guy imparticular. I am still not prepared to move any relationship to the next level with anyone but he sure knows how to sweet talk me. Still wish Jesse would just pull his head outta his ass and show up on my doorstep.

Got my nose pierced yesterday. Something I have wanted to do for a very long time. Got a very little stud put in and I love it! Hurt like hell cuz I had it done at a tattoo place where they use a needle and not a gun. Still tender today but not too bad.